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WoW!! In an turn of an eye, I am back...its too short..My holiday ended just like that. I dont want to go back to work!!! The moment I landed in Singapore, I felt that nightmares are coming back to haunt me again  Arrrgghh!!!!

Day 1: SG - TPE

We were all excited on the air tho the food on SQ sucks!! The cheese omelette was a tad salty and I don't really like the stewardess cos I forgot to push up the leg rest and she was SO fierce. I felt she just have to highlight it in a light tone rather than such a heavy and sarcastic one. We took the Freego bus which costs NT$140 (ard SGD$7) to the hotel. It was actually easier than I thought it would be. We took the bus frm the APT to a road along Taipei Main Station and change to another bus which took us directly to the Hotel. We stayed at Riverview Hotel at HuangHe Rd very near Ximen Ding. Our room was small but the bed's clean and comfy. The toilet looks old but passable to us. The girls at the F/D was quite friendly except for 1 or 2 dumb ones. We freshened up and went out to explore Ximen Ding. On the way we found a bakery shop *Artisan Bakery*  which looks very unique and we popped in for cake and tea. It was so relaxing and the 2 aunties was very friendly to us. In fact all the pple in taipei was really friendly and helpful that I feel very blessed that tho we are travelling as 2 gers but we got help everywhere we went. We had Ah Zhong Mian Xian and the very famous Duck Specialty Shop. Both was great and we did light shopping here and there. Dinner was at this old taiwanese jap shop that was really crowded and the food was FANTASTIC!! The sashimi was really thick and fresh. The sea urchin handroll was undescrible...We had a sashimi platter, handroll and omelette rice and it costs us ard $20+ each. At night we went to RaoHe Night market and I went to buy all the cute stuffs. We were all exhausted!!

Day 2: ABF was disappointing. We went to buy her LV bag and I bought a bag at Juicy Couture for SGD$500 *NT$9900* I like it very much tho I am quite worried abt paying back my parents later. I bought J. C cos I went Anna Sui and the bags and everything this season looks so passe at least not to my taste. We bought sushi platter back to hotel and eat its cheap and good. *We went taiwan to eat Jap food Lolz* We went Dan Shui and it was beautiful...the river and sunset was calm and beautiful. We had BBQ sotong, prawn roll and loads of other snacks. Its walking and walking...we headed back to go to WuFenPu and I whack and whack all I can as she wasnt too keen on the fashion there.

Day 3: We walk into this street which happens to be ZhongXiao DunHua *Jay's shop* and we actually planned to eat Beef HotPot but ended up in a vege hotpot rest. I think she wasnt too happy abt it but no choice cos we already inside. The food wasnt too bad actually. We went to Jay's Shop OMNI and it was beautiful..I saw this long Tee saying: I WANNA BE UR DOG..I really love it but didnt buy it cos I bought a pair of shoes It cos ard $300 *NT$6000*. It was a pair that I really like but hesitated cos its too expensive - its by Chloe Chen. OK i bought it in the end and I begin worrying about telling Mom when I reached home. Shilin was a disaster as she stomped off cos she cant sit down to eat her chicken chop and I was left all alone with all the bags. I went back to hotel and when she's back, I went out for a walk. I bought Jay's latest album, a manicure, and nick nacks. I was happy walking alone and felt maybe I shld travel alone rather than with someone else the nxt time. All was fine by the time I am back. The reason I went for a walk is to give each other space and time alone to minus the ackwardness. I needed the space and time myself.

Day 4: Last day/Night We took this day leisurely cos both of us don't have much $$ left. Esp. me. So we bought more snacks and laze ard. Before we know it, the day is over!! We went back to Ximen Ding for a Jap. Style BBQ and hotpot. It was BEST!!! The server Coco *a guy okie!!* was really friendly and helped us alot. The BBQ is with charcoal and the meat cuts were so much more superior than those in Singapore!! He cooked the heitang muahchee for us and its really nice!! We made lots of jokes abt him cos he is soooo cutez *not in a guy way lahz* Its abt SGD$25 per pax so its super dirt cheap. Already I am very sad cos we are leaving the nxt day!!! I didnt want all these to end. Our bags were stuffed to the max. We went TPE bags were 20kg and returned with 40kg.

Day 5: Departure...We went back to the bakery and chatted. All abt childhood and our life with parents and family. Brunch was at the old taiwan/Jap shop again and it was a small but good lunch. Last minute shoppings and we left for APT. This is all the sad story so I will leave it out. My parents came to fetch us and its HOME SWEET HOME!! I found that I didnt have to return to work the nxt day and I was even more happy!!

I wanna go back again nxt yr defintely!!! No matter what!! There is so much to do at Taiwan that 5 days is NOT enuf. Nxt time I will save even more $$ maybe I will buy most of my stuffs at OMNI...Lolz!! I am crazy!!!

I going to Taipei soon...Hurray!! I hope this wld be a super wonderful trip filled with laughter and wonderful memories.

I plan to buy cami for Fad and the Ultra big spec frame for Zai!!! Whahahaha * If he is reading my blog then to Zai," Now u know what I'm gonna bring back... U must wear it no matter what!! Lolz*"  I am so looking forward to this trip...

Fad and I went to see Gordon's granny and we all had a chat. I will look forward for the nxt 2 yrs to come and I sincerely wish that 2 yrs later when I look back at this blog I will be feeling blessed and happy in my life. Pple said, "Never to submit in to beliefs and pessimism." I have always believed and know that I will be happy in the end no matter what and that's the most important.

 My Life has never been easy...my parents were conservative to the max and Face Value is almost everything to them. I was always compared to my frens in terms of homework and results. Truthfully, I have never been a fantasic student in my primary and secondary school days *I mean who cares!! I tot its this period of a child's life thats most important is to grow up creatively and happily..no??  No wonder S'porean kids are getting more and more spoilt and impaired in every sense!!* I hated my parents who didnt understand me and discipline was caning me to death. I used to discuss how to DIE so as to escape from their clutches with my Brother and cousin.

 My memories of them were very much distorted with tears, love and hatred. I only remember being shifted from aunties to aunties house to stay cos I cant go home. The reason..?? I have no freaking idea as well, they have to go overseas or something..but this went on for quite sometime even when thry were back. I remember being fostered by a nurse Auntie Nancy. I cried so much and hard that I cant sleep at night and I have to sleep nxt to 2 old grandmas that I dont know at all. When her son was being caned by his dad cos he went running into the puddles, I was so afraid but i had no one to turn to except to take everything in. I prayed to return home but it never came, my parents didnt come to look for me either.

 Toys were very rare and mostly gifts frm my dad's collegues. When I asked esp. my mom for toys I wld get caning. I was taught by my Dad." Never Compare!!" I wanted so much for my parents to love me then..so much but the more I yearned for it the further it distance itself from me. If I cant finish the bowl of rice when they have finished cos I am full *God! I am only 5-6 yrs old How much do u expect me to eat, I was tied to the balcony's grill like an animal and caned repeatedly by my Dad and Mom.. There was once she discovered someone had broke her compact powder and she assumed that it was me. It honestly wasnt me and I begged her, I had to kowtow to her telling her it wasnt me But I was still caned like a dog w/o any mercy shown. I wld tell her now its only a F***king* powder which $$ can buy and u wont die BUT becos of this I have hated you and your retribution?? U have to slog your life off and still cannot bear to buy a good brand of compact to use it for urself. U have to use lippies that are WAY Long overdue cos they are cheaper or watever

 I hated going home and I wasnt even allowed to join any Uniform grps cos she thinks they are useless and dirty. My life was forever to follow what THEY want to me to do but its MY life not theirs. I am glad I was a rebel to a certain extent as I have learned early NEVER to rely on anyone for anything.

Now looking back and they have indeed aged...my hatred towards them have turned into "Pity" - Cos I cannot change what had happened before and its their own thinking and actions that resulted in today's reaping.

Love - When I was in Switzerland, they have stood by me for when I lost my "1st and most treasured lappie"  in London and sent another one to me almost immediately once I returned to Caux/Montreux frm my holiday. It was during that period then I realised I had parents who loved me and cared for me. It was also when I was there doing my degree, I realised I have to prove myself that SO What I am a Chinese, A S'porean!! No matter what I will beat all the farangs and proved myself more worthy than them. And I did!! Can u imagine, they tot we cant speak English!! Hello!! We are all educated frm British Educational System and we all graduated with either a Cambridge/ Oxford O levels/ A levels cert okie!!

I want to be filial to them because I have learnt to forgive what they ave done to me in the past BUT I will NEVER forget. When did I discover I was able to forgive them I have no idea as well. When this enlightens me I felt lighter and happier. I realise Buddha made me go thru all that so that I will never do that to my children. All the pain/tears and anguish will end in my time so that my children are able to open their own new chapter of discovering life the way they deserve.

P/S: No matter what I wish to tell her NOW I know... 1 big stab with a deep wound..I wont die BUT I now know...

Life evolves ard Work...There are many changes that happening and I have got to adapt to them fast and hard. Nevertheless, I am extremely thankful for I have a home to go back to. I have some savings to look at *When I say some its really tat few some...haiz* I have seen pple come and go and realise who they really are.  I have recalled those moments when I was up at Caux looking down to understand that nothing is permanent...Eveyting boils down to tat certain "Moments" For experiencing them, I am Thankful...

I chanced upon a quote frm Stephanie Barron, Jane and the Unpleasantness at Scargrave Manor, 1996:

"Friends, in my experience, are like ladies’ fashions. They come and go with the seasons, and are rarely of such stout stuff as bears repeated wearing."

Ah...how true is that but at the same time I realised How lonely is that too...Again its "moments" refering to Ladies' fashion

Anticipation fills the heart but weakens the body...

Busy week...before i knew it, its already over...well I got the flu and have been coughing non stop killing my throat and lungs totally... I ish sooo tired...I have seen the doctor but still coughing like crazy all the time... Work is draining me too.... perhaps its time for me to really consider working together with my Mom rather than slogging my life away there... I really don't wish to leave and give up just like that But I am so tired...WAT Shld I do?? The Future looks bleak and lonely... *e Sad part of my life*

I met up with XuanJun to pay for the deposit for the trip to Taiwan in Oct...My GdNess!! D***!! am I broke now... I have to smell grass for the rest of the month! I am super excited for this trip lahz! 5Ds 4 Ns Taipei here I come...I cant describe it in words but its the "Feel" thats driving me crazy!! Like as if I am going tomorrow regardless...Lolz!! Yipee!!

P/s: Oh! I am back playing Diablo II *Diaoz!* Whahaha cos D3 is taking its own D*** time for too long...so to keep me occupied...